Today is less of a helpful improvement suggestion than a request for improvement suggestions. Yes, you can tell I’m tired today!
I have started to suffer from sleep paralysis. It first happened about seven years ago and then popped up every so often, but now it’s happening at least twice a month. I have been on the NHS website and there is no medical solution which is upsetting, but there are suggestions in there from other sufferers which I’ve been trying.
Basically, sleep paralysis involves being awake but unable to move, often accompanied by hallucinations. My hallucinations are always that I am waking up from a dream. I think that I’m awake and then I realise I’m not and I try and wake myself up. This seems to work but then I realise I am still asleep. This happens any number of times until I eventually succeed in waking myself up. It sounds very run of the mill written like that, but it is really very frightening. I feel like I am trapped in the dream, like Eri Asai in After Dark, and I will never get out. The first time it happened I was dreaming that there was rustling going on behind my bed and the lights and television were turning on and off poltergeist style. That definitely wasn’t a dream I wanted to be trapped in.
Last night it happened and I actually remembered a piece of advice I saw which sounded like rubbish but I thought I should try. The theory is that if you realise you are hallucinating then you can change the hallucination to suit yourself. I did try to do that, mainly just trying to calm myself down, but unfortunately I ended up thinking I had fallen off the bed and was choking on my hair. Guess trying to control the hallucinations doesn’t really work for me!
It’s starting to become quite scary, especially when I am preparing to go to bed. Has anyone experienced this and do you have any suggestions? Please???